:/

It's always hard to be honest about how you really feel. I'm not talking about the simple likes and dislikes of an ice cream flavor. I'm talking about how you feel about yourself, your life and the choices you've made that have shaped you.

I thought I really wanted to go straight into an MFA program right after my BFA since well I've dinged the big 30 already. There's a part of me though that just wants to settle down and live my life.
I don't want to prove anything to anyone anymore. I'm tired and I just want to be - well me. But it feels like I can't do that without paying some big price.

I'm a bit lonely, not that I am alone, just lonely in my thoughts and personal struggles. I don't openly talk about many things to people. It's hard, I wear so many masks. I never want to feel like I need a mask but I do and it's suffocating. I feel so claustrophobic.

Adults out there.... help me...